Always thought that i ll be an avid blogger someday and the irony is i never wrote one.But then i thought who ll read it anyways ...
I am happy there is no one to read it today and i don't know when i ll be writing next, so .....
watching movies always made me wonder that either my life is pretty boring or cinema is portrayal of unrealistic imagination...... ' Hazaro Khwahishe Aisi ' - can importance of something be evanescent ....it cannot be right , its just movies where they tell that the priorities drastically change, . . . .even if they change it takes substantial time.... well looking at couple of months in retrospect i now believe that they were not totally wrong ....
Rail Tel - the backbone of national knowledge network , the channel to 'growth fostered by technological innovations' - the opportunity i was waiting for , the lost chance when i was not selected in the published list, the legend killer ( i never failed after reaching a Personal Interview )................. all of a sudden a mail from their side and I am being welcomed by them ( till 1 st March)
What started as euphoria has ended with some questions I never bothered to ask myself.. what matters to me ? ...the usual answer : peace of mind..... but that was a usual answer.... no reality checks, no milestones to refer to.. and the price had to be paid ...... two days of ' trade off ' analysis, re-prioritizing , prescience of issues and ultimately withdrawal.....
Some opportunities, hopes and aspirations just don't fit the rigid realities and but there should be no regrets... after of the 'rigid reality' is 'the projection of my life so far' and life has given me enough reasons to be proud of family, friends, k.....
Still there are some corners where pain is pulsating and i know it may some day emerge out as a regret.... but well I ll try to defend myself as I am doing it now......
P.S:- The streak continues
Ambuja cement.......> ICICI Securities...... > Reliance industries Limited.........>Vodafone......>....AMSOM......> RailTel Corporation of India
